Friday, August 15, 2014

Sizzling at Seminary

It’s hot. No, I mean it’s REALLY HOT. Yesterday I rode my bike to the grocery store. On the way there, I was stopped at a red light. While waiting, my attention was arrested by a wooden telephone pole. The tar coating had melted off the pole, and had formed a puddle on the ground beneath. It’s just that hot, here in Dallas, Texas.

I’m headed back to Colombia by a circuitous route, which is taking me through Dallas Theological Seminary. Through a rather amazing succession of events, the Lord made it blatantly obvious that He wants me here for a time. I’m enrolled in the ThM program, and am looking forward to beginning classes on the 25th of August. I’m asking for your prayers as I embark upon a new season of life; that I’d live the will of God and take hold of all that God has for me here in Christ Jesus.
 
Dallas, Texas...the DTS campus is in the foreground
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Life has been full, since I last updated you. These months have been spent working at Balarat Outdoor Education Center, and also helping my friend, Teague, to build a cabin. This was a memorable and enjoyable project; I learned many things about building that I didn’t know. Much of it may come in handy in Colombia, particularly what I learned about laying block. (But no, don’t call me in to lay the foundation of your next mansion – you’ll be disappointed with the finished product.) It was a beautiful Colorado summer, spent working in a spectacular location with a good friend. I’ve been blessed.    
 
(You might have to expand the pictures to see them, this time around...!) 
Climbing Mount Audubon



Building the Cabin

I said goodbye to most of my family in Dallas, as they’d driven down to Texas for a short vacation before heading back to Colorado. It was a good introduction to the state, as we drove through west Texas, across to the gulf, and up to Dallas. Has anybody ever told you that Texas is huge? Well folks…it’s true; as distance is reckoned by hours in the car, the state is enormous!


Roadtripping in Texas

 
In Houston we stopped by NASA. It was a childhood/teenage dream of mine to be an astronaut (go ahead and laugh), and I had to remember what Jim Elliot wrote as he went as a missionary to Ecuador by sea:

…I wanted to sail when I was in grammar school, and well remember
memorizing the names of the sails from Merriam-Webster’s ponderous
dictionary in the library. Now I am actually at sea – as a passenger, of
course, but at sea nevertheless – and bound for Ecuador. Strange – or is it?
– that childish hopes should be answered in the will of God for this now.

I remember memorizing stuff related to space exploration as a kid – weighty terms such as “Trans-Earth Injection Burn.” I was quite taken up with it all, but then I discovered something infinitely more worthy of my attention – God. In following Him single-heartedly, everything else is gain to us, but when we hold onto our idols, we lose all. Whatever we lay hold of through Jesus Christ means life and peace, but whatever we cling to apart from Him means death and confusion. The key to wholeheartedly enjoying God’s blessings is to be wholly satisfied in God. Pray for me as I seek to live in this truth, and may God’s grace be yours as you do the same.  
 
NASA
 

Thursday, March 6, 2014

South of the Border(s)

They say that a picture is worth a thousand words. If so, I will be several thousand words short in telling you about my trip back to Colombia, because my camera was stolen, down on the edge of the jungle. I was sorrier about the loss of the pictures than I was about the loss of the camera; I’d taken some really good ones. But I’d decided beforehand that I was willing to run the risk of losing the camera in order to get pictures. I don’t regret the decision. It’s the same with life. We can carefully shield ourselves from all danger and uncertainty, or consciously choose to be exposed to hardship in our pursuit of God and His will. We do run the risk of losing what we hold dear in this life, if we choose the latter course of action. But there is a difference between me risking my camera and Christ’s followers laying their lives on the line. My pictures are gone for good, but whatever we lose in the service of Christ will be repaid a hundredfold (Mark 10:29-30).  


Off the coast of Florida

I was back in Colombia for nearly three weeks, this February. The period was book-ended by a couple episodes of “Delhi belly” (except in this case, “Bogotá belly” might be a better name). This nefarious malady doubles as an effective weight-loss tool; forget the South Beach Diet, Colombian street food is the answer for you!! So much for the supposed glories of missionary life; I assure you that nobody feels too spiritual at 3 a.m. after ingesting a toxic empanada the previous afternoon.  

 
I think this was pre-empanada. I didn't feel like going up on the roof, post-empanada.

The purpose of the trip was a little nebulous, at the beginning. Honestly, it was like this – the Lord opened the door for me to go, and so I went. He defined things for me as the days went by. Looking back, there were multiple reasons for it. For one, it was the catalyst for me to process my year and a half living in Colombia. So many things happened during that period that I hadn’t really dealt with in any meaningful way. Being back in Colombia gave me the opportunity to digest the experiences I’d had there in the past.    


Bogotá - el Centro 

For another, it was a visionary trip. Not only did I deal with the past, but God gave me a peek into what He has for me in Colombia in the future. For some time I have been grappling with the question of what exactly the Lord wants me to do there. Merely moving to another country never makes a person a missionary; concrete action has to be taken if disciples are to be made. I have passed many years with a vague sort of vision for rural Colombia. Over the past few months, that vision has become sharper. It has narrowed down to planting New Testament-based churches in strategic locations throughout rural Colombia, particularly in the jungle. The vision had become clear to me before this trip, and going back to Colombia for a couple weeks was the chance to do what I hadn’t had time to while I was working in Colombia. I was able to talk to missionaries who are involved in work similar to the kind that I believe God wants me to be involved in, and see some of what’s happening firsthand. It was a real encouragement, to tell the truth. It gave me an optimism about the future in Colombia that I haven’t had for some time. And I’m excited about what God has in store. 
 
 …And then again, another reason for going back was to sharpen up on my Spanish, which has gotten so rusty that it’s unquestionably scary! 2 ½ weeks of Colombia was an awesome refresher course, but I’m afraid that it’s not where it was when I left for the States last September. 

Graffiti in the center of town

I started off in the capitol city of Bogotá – the only part of the trip that I have photos from. I visited the school I used to teach at, as well as several old friends and a few new ones. A few days later I went to a town called Villa de Leyva in the department of Boyacá. Here I helped out at a Christian camp for a couple days, mostly by helping to dig a trench and trimming up some very overgrown trees. This area of Colombia is beautiful. (Here’s where a picture or two would have come in handy, but I’ll just have to let you Google it, if you’re that interested!) Villa de Leyva is the cleanest town I have ever been to in Colombia, probably because of the large influx of tourists who boost its economy. The camp I was at has tremendous potential to serve churches across Colombia; what they could really use are volunteers to chip in and help with the upkeep and improvement of the facilities. Anybody interested?! 

The best was saved for last – several days in San Jose del Guaviare, which is on the edge of the jungle. It’s a blazing hot summer down there right now; the most recent rainfall was a few days after the new year, and the dust on the roads is inches thick in places. The Guaviare grabbed my attention the first time I saw it, as a college intern who spoke no Spanish and had no idea where they were or what they were doing. I pretty much fell in love with the place, honestly. That was four years ago, and I’ve never quite recovered since. Whenever I’ve been in the jungle, it’s as if the Lord has told me, I saved you for this. Now we are saved from and to many things; elaborating them isn’t the point of this post. But I do know that, among other purposes, I was granted salvation so that I might serve God in Colombia’s jungles. And that is an awesome and fearful privilege and responsibility.      


Sunday @ Orquideas in Bogota

I’ve purposely refrained from talking about specific people I encountered on this trip; I need to keep the privacy of some, and if I talked about all of them, this post would be way too long (you’re thinking, Well duh, like it isn’t already…?!?!). But the people were by far the highlight. I’m thinking of several, but I’ll just mention Gustavo. Gustavo is a 44-year-old from the coast of Colombia, who has just about one of the biggest genuine smiles I’ve ever seen on the face of anybody. I met him and his family over a year ago, on a trip to the Guaviare. They work with an indigenous group close to San Jose; they’ve learned the culture and language, developed relationships, and are in the process of translating the Bible into the language. This is the investment of a lifetime; you don’t just up and quit in the middle of it because you feel like it. I stayed with Gustavo’s family while I was in the Guaviare, and was impressed by several things –their sacrificial hospitality and acceptance, their godliness while just being normal people, their joy, their humility, their perseverance, among others. If you think that a missionary is always a pith-helmet-topped white guy in darkest Africa, you’re dead wrong; there are people from many cultures like Gustavo and his family – Christ’s ambassadors taking the Gospel across cultural and language barriers around the world. Get to know some of them!      
 
Gustavo and his family (thanks, Facebook)! 

It’s been nine years since I became a Christ-follower, and since God called me to Colombia. I still haven’t been able to move there long-term. The longest I’ve been in Colombia was for about 1 ½ years. I really thought the move there in 2012 would be permanent, but God had other ideas, obviously, and I still wait for the day when I’ll be able to go there and stay indefinitely. In the meantime, I continue running around like a nut between states and continents. Since the new year, I’ve been to Colorado-Iowa-Colorado-Colombia-Colorado. It’s been a good reminder of what on earth we’re doing here anyway; like Abraham, I’ve been called to go out, and I’ve gone out, although I haven’t always known where I’m going, in the short-term. I’m dwelling by faith in a foreign country, waiting for the city which has foundations, whose builder and maker is God (Heb. 11:8-10). Our status, my brothers and sisters, is that of strangers and pilgrims (v. 13). Maybe you haven’t been to two states and as many continents since January 1st, but you’re fully as much of a stranger in a foreign country as I am, if you’re Christ’s. Don’t lose sight of your heavenly home! And on your journey there, live on purpose to magnify the glories of your God to those around you, to the end that they might follow you on the same road.
 
For now, as far as I can see, a short trip to Utah will probably come up in mid-March, then a few months in Colorado. There’s a chance I might move to Texas later in the year; I’ll update y’all as I know more. Pray that I’ll abide in faith, hope, and love as God unfolds the particulars of His good and perfect will. Keeping in mind that our true homeland is yet to come, Colombia is nevertheless where I belong, for as far as I can see into the future. I miss the place with all my heart; it’s frustrating not to be there, but then again, this is a good chance to learn to rejoice in God’s will, instead of grudgingly bearing with it. Frustration is not in order; neither is panic, discontent, worry, or other related sins. Only faith and trust in a good God, who does all things well. And so remembering the faith of Abraham, and the Faithful One who had his trust, I leave you with these words from Hebrews:

Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God (12:1-2).

Look to Him!         

Monday, February 24, 2014

Teacher: Colombia


Stepping out of the plane into the Fort Lauderdale airport, I was greeted by a large American flag with a sign below it, welcoming me to the United States. I view my American citizenship and childhood as a God-given stewardship to be taken advantage of in order to bring blessing to other nations. God blesses us not so we can spend our lives augmenting our comfort level, but so that we can bless others. I've had access to certain opportunities and privileges here in the USA that I wouldn't necessarily have had, if I had been born in another country. Those blessings must be spent, not on myself, but on others, in other countries. Particularly in Colombia. Coming back to the States this last time, I've been thinking about the other side of the coin - the things I've learned in Colombia, thanks to Colombia, that I didn't learn in the States. Some of these things were common knowledge in the States (I just didn't catch on at the time), others were things that I couldn't have understood very well in an American context. Here's a list, in no particular order:


1. I learned to be flexible. My Stateside life was set in stone. Change was a major big deal. Although I still have work to do, I've learned to "go with the flow."


2. Along the same lines, I've learned by experience that people are more important than time is, although by nature I'm still a hopelessly task-driven American.


3. I got over my fear of cooking. And let me tell you, I was afraid of it!


 












4. Overcoming my backwoods hillbilly roots (don't misunderstand me, I'm proud of them), I managed to figure out that it would be beneficial if I learned to dress in something besides old jeans and a t-shirt that were two sizes too big.


5. On the other hand, I realized that if I had to look frumpy on some occasions in order to be all things to all men, it was worth the embarrassment.


6. I learned that all people have a story.





















7. I learned to expect anything and count on nothing (like finding yourself "live" on radio programs with absolutely no advance warning whatsoever).


8. I learned to be grateful for friends who loved and helped me unconditionally, even when I couldn't or didn't reciprocate.


9. I learned that I am not a great missionary and much less a great Christian, just an ordinary person with ordinary problems; I am in Colombia because I serve a great God.


10. I learned not to throw in the towel just because of a bad day.


11. I learned that kids don't have to petrify me. In fact, I learned to like them.



























12. I learned how to deal with interpersonal conflict and the importance of unconditional love - one of the hardest lessons!






















13. I learned that if a person wants to reach the world (at least the Americas and Europe), they should move to Manizales, Caldas and open a backpacking hostel.













14. I learned that in spite of the heat and bugs, I love the jungles of Colombia more than any other place on earth. 

15. I learned that I really want to see the Gospel brought to the people of rural Colombia, whether or not it's dangerous and difficult and crazy. 



16. I learned that life is really hard, but that the grace of God really is sufficient for life.


17. I learned that I can eat practically anything I'm served, although my Waterloo remains the jellied cow hoof in Chiquinquira (this isn't it)...


18. I learned that some of the greatest people in the kingdom of God are unknown to the Church at large. 


19. I learned to see more the kindness of God in the small stuff (like getting long-coveted motorcycle riding lessons). 


20. I learned to just laugh about some things, not to try to make sense of them. 

...These are just a few of the lessons that God has used Colombia to teach me. They're not arranged in order of importance, and there are more. I'm grateful for this adopted country of mine!



Monday, September 2, 2013

Ambition

"Cromwell, I charge thee, fling away ambition: By that sin fell the angels; how can man, then, The image of his Maker, hope to win by it?" - William Shakespeare 

Ambition, you are unworthy of my pursuit and do not deserve my devotion. You obscure my God and confuse my aspirations. You muddle my dreams and turn me from the lofty and eternal to the trite and temporal. God free me from your strangling grasp, for in following you I leave behind life and walk into the shadowlands of death by self-consumption. 

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

What Am I?


The point of the Christian life is not to do. It is to be. And so I must ask - not, "What do I do?" but, "What am I?" To find out necessitates a mental separation from doing. I am tired of doing. When I am an idolater and find my joy in my performance, I am so miserable, for my sin-stricken flesh can never meet my expectations. I threaten my identity every time I let myself down. What sin! What I do must cease to define, in my mind, who I am.

What am I? Forever a fraud? If my performance defines my identity, then I have no identity, and I must then appear to others as something that I am not. Will I forever be a sham, knowing that I am not a spiritual person, cringing when people say I am, yet strangely afraid of having people think of me as I really am? Both options are unbearable.

What am I? My desire to do things for God will never be realized as God intends and plans for it to be, as long as my identity is tied to my performance. My service will be of a sickly, anemic, half-guilty, ever-longing nature, because I will never serve God as I think I ought. 
       
What am I? Forever a guilt-haunted, never-resting, performance-driven Christian, unable to get over how I produce (in a picture) a few shriveled raisins, instead of the massive bunches of grapes of the Promised Land?

Photo by Steve Ekblad SXC


What am I? A branch, and rejoicing to be so. If I am a branch, I have no roots in and of myself, and no resources to produce any fruit whatsoever. (Turns out that I was imagining the raisins.) If I were to be cut off from the Vine, I would die at once. Those Promised Land grapes are produced only through the Vine – the One in Whom we live. In Him there is rest from my flesh. In Him is full identity. In Him is freedom from bondage to the opinions of others, for in Him I can be genuine, unafraid to appear as I really am – clothed in Christ. In Him is joy, power, and fruitful service. In Him is freedom from the fear of failure, for Christ can never fail. May the Vinedresser graft me more closely into the Vine, so that His abundant life can flow though me.
   
“Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in Me. I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing. …These things I have spoken to you, that My joy may remain in you, and that your joy may be full” (John 15:4-5,11). 


Saturday, March 10, 2012

God at Work in Colombia

God is at work in rural Colombia! Check out this video for some details:


Monday, March 5, 2012

2011...in brief

...Having lost touch with many of you for some time now, I thought this might be a good time to write an update. I need to offer a general apology to all of you who have attempted in vain to contact me over the past year (or four!). If you’re imagining that you’re the only person who’s been feeling ignored by me, know that you have company!The past year has been very busy and included many life changes for me. Amid the realization that everything and everyone eventually changes, it’s been a blessing to remember the One who “is the same yesterday and today and forever.”

Emmaus graduation, May 2011
One of the biggest highlights of 2011 was graduating from Emmaus Bible College with a degree in Intercultural Studies and Biblical Studies. Since completing my studies there, I have been living in Colorado with my family and doing custodial/maintenance work at an outdoor education center in the mountains. Over the summer our big project was thinning forty acres of forest.

Firewood at the Balarat Outdoor Education Center, July 2011
In September the missionary I did my internship with in Colombia, Russell Stendal, came to Colorado, and I was able to visit with him for a few hours.

With Russell Stendal in Colorado, September 2011
Late September/early October included a trip to Arizona for a workshop with Simply the Story (www.simplythestory.org/oralbiblestories/), and then to Wisconsin for a visit with my friend Amy, who had temporarily returned from India.

With Amy in Wisconsin, October 2011
In addition to work, I’m currently taking an EMT course through the local community college. It’s a real challenge for my poor old brain, and your prayers would be greatly appreciated!

Although I don’t have a set date for returning to Colombia, God has definitely opened a few doors in the process of getting ready to go back on a more long-term basis. Over the past year the Lord has directed me to work with a ministry called “Spirit of Martyrdom,” which is associated with Voice of the Martyrs.


Also, and perhaps most importantly, the Lord has been preparing me for Colombia by teaching me more of what it means to be like His Son and walk in His Spirit. Over the past year I have come to know in a deeper way “that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh,” and the truth of what Christ said in John 15:4-5: “Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself unless it abides in the vine, so neither can you unless you abide in Me. I am the vine, you are the branches; he who abides in Me and I in him, he bears much fruit, for apart from Me you can do nothing.” There are two great truths which we need to truly understand and comprehend – first, how disgustingly sinful we really are, how utterly incapable of true righteousness, and second, how sufficient Christ is to change us into His image and how desirous He is to do so through His Spirit. May you and I become more like Him in 2012!